Not to get all philosophical here, but does “nesting” truly exist?
I am 38 weeks pregnant and for the past 3 weeks I have been a mad-woman about cleaning and organizing the house. It has been really easy to blame it on “nesting,” especially when I get a little carried away by the hormones and get, um, a little, slightly, just a smidgen, nasty. It is easy to just to call it “nesting” and move on. Everyone accepts it as a fact that pregnant women go through a “phase” where they have an uncontrollable urge to get their environment ready for the upcoming arrival of baby.
But mine was more than just nesting. Nesting is too simple an explanation. It is not deep enough. I experienced something on a different scale. Not that “nesting” was not partially at work, but it in no way was the whole reason. No, I experienced something bigger.
But what?? I think it was a “planets aligning” kind of thing for me. It was MY TIME to get my act together. It was a combination of so many different things. It was because I experienced months of not being able to care for my home , my family, or myself. Months of HATING my new house and terribly missing my old home. Months of physically and mentally feeling like crap– worthless crap. And then a switch flipped in my brain, but it wasn’t any NEW information or a new way of looking at things. It was just that all of a sudden, I was READY. I was READY to move on. READY to make this house OUR HOME. READY to FEEL NORMAL again. READY to let happiness back into my life again. READY to love myself again.
Yes, it was that huge. And YES, it feels so good. GOD, was I READY! Thank you.